d at 7, at 16 it's ruining my life :( help me why don't people understand?

first you should recognize that it was not your fault that it happened, second you probably need to come to terms with yourself, realize that even though something awful like that happened there will always be better days and keep up your spirits, life can be filled with misery and yet there is always a silver lining. as for your friend i suggest you tell him again and if he doesn't listen to you than maybe hes not the kind of person you thought he was. good luck with your dilemma